day fifty six - purpose

things are beginning to come clear for me. why i am here. i can see now why it was necessary for me to come here before returning to school. the lessons i am learning, the person i am becoming. a few things this trip was never to be about was to make an interesting blog, to take sweet pictures of scenery or tell cute stories of kids. It wasn't to be about a stamp in the passport or checking something off a life list of things to do, and definitely not about credits for an internship for my program. This trip was about stepping out in faith. making a decision for Christ. Stepping into the unknown to have an adventure with my Best Friend and be humbled and learn along the way. That's what it was about from the very beginning.

When i got here i was shocked. It was the first time i had ever travelled anywhere alone and i guess it hit me when i got here that i dont know anyone or anything. the language...everything was foreign to me and i wasn't going to be leaving for another couple months. Honestly i was very much looking forward to going home. the road has been...long. and my heart is getting stronger. the road is longer still and i am blessed by what God is teaching me.

the other day i was having coffee with Alicia and i was explaining my program at school and i was getting all excited and i said "and we get to do a student ministry every week!" and as soon as i said it i laughed. I have always said "have to do a student ministry". and it just came out that i get to. And that is truly how i feel. i am feeling more and more equipped to do God's will for my life. I'm beginning to see that we really can't grow and learn and be stretched and humbled if life is a piece of cake. It's through the hard times we grow. i have a love/hate relationship with my problems in life. My good friend Wilson told me last night: you are bigger than your problems, and God is bigger than you.

I don't know what God has in store for me for the next couple months, but i want it to go slowly because i don't want to miss out on anything, any opportunity. these friendships i have made are going to last. these things God is showing me are forever imprinted on my heart. there's so much more to learn.